Family Bond

In the realms of family there are those so far and so distant

If blood is to be a bond then truthfully we're only half existent

Not so much as a shadow of you remains in my memory banks

I can only draw blanks when I attempt to reminisce our lives if ever together

What we had was nothing - never - turns into thoughts of what we could've had

If we didn't share a dad you and I would simply be strangers

This lost love has endangered the bond of family we can't seem to achieve

So many years have came and went and every day is still hard to believe

That you can't perceive the meaning within a family bond

Is it cause we're not strong enough individuals in this dealing?

Or is it cause we weren't born from the same womb so there's no residual feelings...

I try to be the better of my being and yet we're two magnets of the opposite kind

We can't seem to see each other in a similar light because our hearts are so blind

I simply find myself trying to be the best half I could be

You won't allow me to be a part of your life, completed

Now your children are in the canvas too and to them I'm just a name depleted -

Of it's standings. I know it seems I'm rambling but I just had to share what my mind was on

I hate that we're half siblings and all I aspire to have with you is a better family bond

Loss of Love

Frustrations are temptations held back and true to this

We loved too deep for too long so the fact of the matter is

You promised many things in the latter of tomorrow and a distant time

It was all so sublime - until now

Cause it seems like what was once in your mind somehow is gone

To think I was so fond of you

And intertwined was us embellished with trust

It was more than just lust but somehow this love lost it's pleasant touch

Sweet nothings mean everything when you're blind to reality

There is no normality between to beings that carry this bond

Lies are missed and twisted dreams of selfish inflictions wrap around my wrists

I never thought that this, this was the end of our I love you more's but it seems as though -

It is. I never meant for things to end like this but I feel you can't fulfill my bliss

I just sit and miss the honesty of your eyes

Your good byes are colder than the winter wind and I feel as if the ice has thinned-

between us two. Should I fall through, your reaction, is it to catch me when I do?

After all, when true love exists there shouldn't be a descent between us two

I would have spent forever finding new ways to keep you for another day

Quiet are your words, because against the truth you have no defense and nothing to say

To my dismay you hold no regrets for untruth and in silence you remain

One day, unknown still, I'll bet that the ability to love again I will regain...