I love taking a moment to analyze life. The people in it or lack thereof. My family and my friends. The abilities that I have as a person and the weaknesses. My confronting of these as well as embracing. There are people that will hurt you in life and people whom you will hurt. There are those in a lifetime you wish to keep near you and those that you can't be near for a lifetime. That's the way things are. Do I have regrets? Not anymore. I've learned to take my mistakes and turn them into lessons learned. Do I make those mistakes often? Unfortunately, I many a time do. Does that mean I'll never learn? No, it just means I need more focus to not commit those mistakes again. Those imperfection and slip ups. I'm not happy with a lot of my past but I a have a proud outlook on my future. I never judge anyone, even if I know them first hand. I speak out on things that may or may not relate to myself or people in general. If it strikes a chord, it is what it is. My intentions in life are never to offend, but often times the truth does. I've come to accept that first hand. I hate having to let go of a good friend because things go sour. Or to fight with a loved one in family. I wish life gave everyone the ability to swallow pride, act in confidence, feel emotion, and most importantly... think before speaking. There are things I've done/said that would be better off not existing in history but those are things we live with. I'm proud of the person I am today, but I accept my many faults and still to this day, fight many demons. I rely on God to continue molding me into a better person. That my family continues to show me the strength in reliance of those which we love, that my friends forgive my shortcomings, and that both never expect anything short of great from me because they deserve no less. I love everyone I have the pleasure in meeting. Because everyone I know has influenced my life. Whether it has been pleasurable or bitter-sweet, an experience is never forgotten, often minded, and always useful. If I can make peace with those I've hurt, I would. If I may continue building strong friendships, I will. If ever a day has gone by without the thought of those which fill my heart with joy, I've perished. Life is a gorgeous gift with surprises, good and bad. We just have to find out which ways we're going to use them and how it can better our lives as well as the lives we touch.
