Flirt with death
Make love to hate
Penetrate through thoughts --
Of destiny and fate
Misplaced are emotions
Depths surpassing Earth's oceans
And I, I'm the keeper of my un-proportioned imagination
With severe inflammation of rages
I turn the pages of this book called reality
Faces of despair wearing masks of confidentiality
Sealed lips taking painful sips of sore contemplation
Grips the mind with a choke hold and binds mental heavy rotation
Deliberate sensations of darkness confine thee
Is it me? Are my heart and cerebral desires combining?
Allowing me-- to kiss the lips of loathsome findings?
Let me stare into the face of my existence reclining
I have embraced the past and today as the present
I've retraced the unpleasant and now fear the future
Everything is unsure with tight woven doubts like surgical sutures
Complimenting my current state of reminisce
I ask, why is my happiness forever missed?
I realize that I am my own fabricator of anti-bliss
I fight and miss failing to let go of the hands grasping distorted memories
God, will I ever be free? Be normal living with these re-consumed feelings?
My emotional cataclysm, death by perfused mental bleeding
Pleading haunted thoughts, allow them to rest in pieces
Laying in the soil where a grim hand now slowly releases
