Realize

Traumatic when you feel you’re harder than concrete silent and still beneath your feet
so discreet self consumed influential poison commencing secretion
viral infection has you sweating like you’re in the hot seat and
drain-exhaust all sources ‘til you show signs of depletion
emotional break down ‘til your hands and knees meet
the searing ground of vicious cycles;
look under you, square one again lost in a maze of your own illusions
mirages of what should be but isn’t brings your mind to seclusion's
and benighted corners in hell where you feel the fires brewing
deep in your thoughts forever consuming
distant pleasures of desires in both past and present affairs
future’s out of the question living day to day wondering if the pleasant will ever arise again
or will the worst of yesterday succumb tomorrow like it has ever since forever ago
because it’s one thing to live in a life with random delays of attractive situations
and relays of the positive instead it’s habituation's
of the downpours within imperfection, fighting demons of the flesh taking their best shots
to see you rise and fall until you are caught
in a web of self destruction blind folded by blood from the painful tears shed day by day
all you ask is for a simple ray of sunshine to brighten up your mind
but instead the self willing seems selfless
and those not helping seem selfish
the world no longer exists and you’re helpless
trust no one are the only words you live by
but you forget one is also you and within your own abilities is the will to do an action of survival
bypass the destructive mines in your relentless recollection of nightmares
through memories but as hard as the concrete you fall on creates pain consider it the regain of intensity to become greater than that of which sat you out on the bench and just like the army
be all you can be, only this war is within your own self try to flourish inner peace
and allow the victory of re-conquering your mind heart and soul succeed
yes, allow you the freedom of not being imprisoned by dark holes of deception
instead strive, retaliate grasp the life in your life realize the reconnection....